Not so cheerful

I'm having an off day...it may be due to my hormones (in case you're jumping to conclusions, no, I'm not pregnant. But breastfeeding comes a second close to causing hormones to run amok), the weather, being tired...a combo of all of the above or maybe even all of the above. All I can say for sure is that I'm irritable, easily annoyed and everything doesn't seem right.

Anyways, the last few days I've heard/seen/read certain things that have really, really irked me. Usually I am not one to let things get to me, but for some reason I am extra annoyed. So I vent. If you don't want to be sucked into my vortex of negativity, don't read on.

Here, listed in no particular order, are the things that are bugging me:

1. Even though my house is fairly tidy, I am annoyed by the clutter. A little paper here, a stack of mail there, forgotten, unused things around. It's got to go. Today I did some major tossing and I feel a bit better.

2. Friends who say they will call to hang out and then don't. Big, big pet peeve. I am pretty sure that's called being ditched. Yes, I understand things come up (me more than anyone knows how hard it is sometimes to keep promises), but hey, I'm not asking for much. How long does it take to make a 5 second  phone call: "Hi, sorry, but I won't be able to make it." Yeah, that didn't even take long to type. Love you, but you have annoyed me.

3. Stupid people. Man, I will probably feel guilty for writing this later, but right now I just have to let it out. I am a big supporter of non-judgement. Everyone is doing their best. Plus a bystander never truly knows what's really going on. I know no one is perfect. Hell, I make mistakes too...sometimes often. But there is truly a difference between: 1. not knowing any better but having a will to learn, or at least having an open mind to improve upon one's mistakes and 2. just plain ignorance with the very erroneous belief that you are in any way right and the lack of willingness to even hear/try/learn a different (maybe better) way. Argggg. I feel like all the efforts out there to improve parenting, to help increase breastfeeding, carseat safety, etc, etc...go totally wasted on these kind of people who, for example, don't even try breastfeeding because they are against it for no real reason (true story I heard yesterday). Also in this category is the very, very ignorant attitude of "oh might as well not recycle that piece of paper. After all one piece is really not going to make a huge difference." Ummm...what? If a million people had the same thought and followed through, it surely would make a huge difference. Yeah, that's why change for the better is so friggin' hard to come about.

4. The MMR vaccine. I am having a real dislike towards anything having to do with the MMR vaccine. Why? Well because I just don't like it. I hate that it's tied to so many potential risks and that it contains all these awful chemicals and that it's a live virus vaccine and pretty much everything about it. I do not want to give it to my baby boy right now. We have postponed his vaccine for now. At this point I am on the "not" side. Not forever, just until he's older, his immune system more mature and his body better able to handle the toxins in it. I didn't have this much of a controversy when Maddie was one. I guess ignorance was bliss...maybe? Thankfully all she got was a wee fever, but still. I have heard and read about too many awful reactions, especially in boys. So yeah, I am not pushing on this one. But I am annoyed that parents even have to worry about this! Why can't it just be a non scary vaccine?

OK. I think I feel better. I should focus on the lovely memories of yesterday (spent the day at the cottage; pictures to come soon, there are some really cute ones!) and I'm sure dinner at my parent's will cheer me up more. Good food, good company are good for the soul.