I Need...

I had a moment of deep reflection this afternoon where all sorts of things that have been swirling around in my heart and my head finally became clear. I realized that these past few months I have totally thrown the balance I had going way off. I used to take at least 2 evenings a week to go to a yoga class and I was visiting with friends, and taking the time to replenish. Lately I have not been replenishing really. It all started with the first trimester exhaustion and nausea...then the bleeding that put a stop to all exercise and stressful activity. Well then that was over, but then came a whole other bunch of concerns that took a toll physically and emotionally. Then the kiddos have been sick on and off and I have just been feeling like I needed to be a turtle in my shell. But I had company in my shell and so I still didn't get that precious "me" time. But it's OK. I knew I was OK that way. I knew that when the time was right to get back to doing the things I was previously enjoying I would feel it. And it has come. Today, while I rested on my bed after a long weekend of dealing with illness related fun, I allowed myself the space to come to the realization that change is now needed. I need to get out of the house for some yoga, some friend time and some me time. I need to do this before my world totally changes again. Four months is not such a long time. I feel like getting all the replenishing I can before once again entering newborn mode. Oh so much to look forward to!