Inspired

I attended a private school open house last night. I am trying to decide what will be the future of Maddie's education. There are so many paths we could choose...public school, private school, homeschool, unschool, a combo of all of the above? It's overwhelming.

For most this is a no brainer. Which is great. But for me it's not.

I would love to homeschool my kiddos. I myself was homeschooled and have fond memories from those days of my childhood. But I also don't want it to turn out like it did when I entered the "junior high years" where I totally rebelled and insisted on going to public school, which led to a series of events which I am not proud of but which in the end made me the person I am today {and of course led me to meet my amazing husband}. I know that's really far away for Maddie, but I feel like whatever I decide now will surely have an impact in how she will  view "school" later on.

I want her to love learning. I want her to see work as enjoyable because she's working on things she's passionate about. I want her to be seen as the awesome little person she is and given the space to be herself. I want her to thrive and grow and be the best she can be.

The school I went to yesterday has an amazing program and philosophy. If only it didn't cost nearly $9000/year. She's totally worth it, I just don't know if we even have that kind of money.

Last night I couldn't fall asleep. I kept thinking of how I might create an amazing curriculum myself and the things I could do to provide an amazing educational experience. I know in theory it sounds incredible and I feel totally inspired. But in reality I just don't know if I could do it. I think I may just have to take the plunge and give it a try. I probably would regret it if I didn't at least try.

I have some time to think this over. And hopefully now that my doubts, questions and intentions are out in the universe the answer will come more easily.